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From the ashes i rise

02.27.04 (6:59 am) [edit]

weep..I am back...for those of you who care...people probably forget who i am...
well..I am basically he same old me...
do you care?

Anywho...

HI TJ...
how's things..

and..i am done...

*bleeds out(
P.S. library people are creepy :roll:

From the ashes i rise

02.27.04 (6:55 am) [edit]

Self distructive tendencies

02.05.04 (6:47 am) [edit]

hello heloo....
news for the day. I suck...a lot.
I hate me...

I still don't have a date for prom. I don't think i will ever get one. Who'd want to take me anyways.

My internet use has been limited to school because i havn't apllied to any colleges yet and my parents are being retarded about that.

Monica and Adam broke up. I don't know my feelings on it because it's not really my business.

Everyone is breaking up. Poois

BUT BUT BU BUBUTUUTUTBTUTUB!

Mike has spoken words. I haven't actually talked to him but at least I now know that he's alright. I want to ask him all kinds of stuff...But...I don't think i's really my business.

well I hafta go

*bleeds out*

pic links

02.03.04 (3:52 am) [edit]

Me

me again

oh yeah and more me

lust factor

01.30.04 (5:22 pm) [edit]

ok...lately i have been feeling extremely lustful...everything is an inuendo for me...EVERYTHING.
i turn the corner and everything is like a huge sexfest...
0_o

And it's driving me nuts...so so so very much
damn sexual feelings.
Mmmm feelings
:wink:
*bleeds out*

Neep

01.27.04 (5:18 am) [edit]

I am sleepy...
I miss mike.
I haven't talked to him in for ever and a day.
I am in the mood for suicide.
I am freezing cold...and sick to my stomach.
I have no lover.
I have no will
I have nasty hair...
and...
My body feels like it's going to explode from all the stress, pain and mental sickness i have been feeling for the past 2 weeks. My scar's aren't healing well but that doesn't really bother me that much. no one ever comments on my LJ my site looks like shite, I need help with it's design makeup. I have no knowledge of tables and barely any about frames. I need to die.

*bleeds out* :cry:

and stuff

01.14.04 (8:01 am) [edit]

man oh man...
bored...bored times ten...that and i miss mike hardcore...I am lonerly...Mon is sick again.
agggggg *dies*

I drew a cool pic :D
well...coool disturbing whatever.
lacerated tiny person sitting on flesh eating mushroom...i think it's cool...
I actually used color. and It doesn't look like crap! :D
OH man...ohman....bored bored times ten...and ther are people trying ot get into the lab. I don't wanna go open the door :( they are asses anyhow...shit heads!

*bleeds out*

bweep?

01.08.04 (8:01 am) [edit]

helloooo...
i am bored...I have a livejournal now...so if you want to read that let me know and if i care to i will give out the url...I just want to give it to people that i talk to because some creepy people like to stalk others on the interweb....lol..interweb.

I still will write here..but you know...people have free access to this and...well...that recently has started to creep me out..
so...
i believe the following people are definitely allowed to read it if they should choose.
seraphic002
ImNotCrazySocietyIs
From the Ashes
Gutterdoll
and that's all i can think of as of now.
see ya later dudes (Finding Nemo)
*bleeds out*

and...back

01.06.04 (5:38 pm) [edit]

hey all...
I have finally come back...FROM THE DEAD Mwahahahahah
but anyhow...I probably won't be updating much because i now have a livejournal...I will still post to keep in touch with my littel friendlies
Cause you know i LOVE you guys
but anyhow...yeah...need to read blogs
*kisses mike*
*bleeds out*

ARGH

12.30.03 (5:20 pm) [edit]

oh man...
family sucks...they won't let me go t out...and then they rag on me fo rusing the computer all the time...
FUCK THEM

*kills self* See ...I did it because they made me! I killed my slef to punish them!
look...see me dead! dead on the floor in my own blood?! do you care now? huh? DO YOU FICKING CARE???
*bleeds OUt*

The Day Technology Turned it's Back on ME

12.29.03 (5:37 pm) [edit]

[current mood = IRKED :? ]
[current music = Silver and COld - AFI]
{think = Jes is HOME! :D :D HUzi Huza}

OH man...ok right to the subject. Nothing technological with me went well today. Mom got her new printer fax scanner dealie today...well we tried to0 set it up....but it turns out that the stupid company makes you pay extra for the USB cablE! ARgH :evil: I wanted to use it so bad...

OH and then ...I tried to transfer all my files onto a disk...so that it wouldn't crowd the Hard Drive...But no..no..would'nt werk...nearly lost all of mi pics of people...including the ones of mike....*exhales*
not an impressive day...OH and on top of that i tried to burn a cd...and the fucking thing went all crappy...so i had to get new one..and it still wouldn't burnWHY DOES TECHNOLOGY HATE ME SOOOOO?

AWW...man...

anyhow...there is a good chance that Jess will be coming over on new years. :D i am crazily happy that she is back

I am drawing a really cool drawing...at least i think it is...
it's a person...with...x's cut into her....I haven't decided on how to finish i tyet...I will post it up once i do though...

WE...need...movies for wednesday night...I wonder when i can run up the road and go get them *ponders*

Oh man...might be taking brea to get her ears pierced again!...WooHOOOOOOO!
I love Piercings! *makes a shirt*
LOOK! LOOK LOOK@
*faints*

I am...tired...holy crap

*bleeds out*

ANd the world fell in

12.28.03 (6:23 pm) [edit]

[current mood = sore and tired :( ]
[current music = "Take a look in the mirror" - Korn]
{think = "I want SEX!"}

hello all

my christmas was alright...i am going to listall the crap i got so if you don't wanna read it scroll down

cd player
Blink 182 cd
PRISMACOLOR pencils
new wallet
odd's and ends...
new ceramic straightener
23 bottles of nail polish
bath set
MONEY

Stuff I bought with said money

Purse
Piercing jewelry(straight, curved and spiked barbells, 2 CBR's, clear retainer)
Take a look in the mirror - KORN
The Principle of Evil Made flesh - COF
CD case
New pillow :D
and...yeah

so anyhow

HOt guy who works at HMV. Oh man...he had a whole bunch of piercings...INCLUDING the back of his neck! i as like :shock: :o and...his hair was purple to boot.
I wanna work there...SO terribly bad
sex on cds woo hoo

I spent the night at melissa's...that was cool
I cut FIdi's hair...and dyed mel's...it looks really nice.
and i was walking through the food court and I saw this totally hot anarchy guy i was like *turns head to watch hot guy and walks into pole*...hot

I saw this holy crap amzing corset in the store...I was going to buy it but hten I would have no more money left for anything else...I wanted it so bad though...
black satin...pushup...lace up front..embroidered roses.
~sigh~ so beautiful

*is mad* Jeremy never called me yet. He said he would and he didn't...I feel so ALONE!....*kills self*

I jammed jewelry through to small a hole in my ears...they bled...and i liked it...scared yet?

*bleeds out*

SEAN ASTIN! YESSSSSSSS

12.28.03 (5:25 pm) [edit]

Your ideal husband is Sean Astin! I hereby label
you loyal,
sweet and caring, and a lover of cute goofy guys
who love everybody

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HOT HOT TIMES TEN!

*puts head in guillotine*

12.23.03 (5:13 pm) [edit]

[current music = The New SHit]
[current mood = Wonky :shock: ]
{think = "I wish I had a bedmate"}

oh man... :shock: I am incredibly bored.
at least tomorrow i get to go out. I get to see my cousins! *snuggles all of them* they are so cute!

But anyhow...i don't feel that excited at all...it just doesn't seem that exciting as it was when i was a kid.
and it just seems like another day that doeesn't matter at all.

O man...I was driving home lthis evening and I was driving by the harbour...and...I had this terrible urg just to swing my wheel right and go right off the fucking road...I was totally considering it too...
what does it mean people?
does it mean that subconsciancely i want to die?
maybe a small part of me does...maybe a big part..I don't know...
help...

oh..man...dream about mike..nice...very very nice...

i won't go into detail because...i don't have his permission.
OH well

well..I probably won't be here for a few days because...well it's christmas and i have to spend time wiht "those that I love"
so see ya..
*bleeds out*

ONE GRAVY WEEKEND!

12.22.03 (5:31 pm) [edit]

[current mood = jittery :shock: ]
[current music = Silver and Cold]
{think = I miss my Squishy! :cry: }

Oh man.
This weekend was really fun. :D
on Saturday Mel had her party. Jeremy was there...and Brea and monica..and of course mel and FIdi..
Adam showed up...and he reeked of gas...!...and he layed all over my pillows...I was like :cry: .
but anyhow...
we mad pizza and twas very good...I kinda wish i could have had a lot more veggies..but jeremy didn't like them and we were splitting the pizza.

:shock: Fidi got me a kick ass decorative box...mel..another amazing candle holder..and I jive little blinking thing aong with candles and a terry's

*huggles all her friends*

I am currently trying to have a webconvo with mike..i
brb

CALLIN ALL METAL HEADS! TBUCKS FOR YOU!

12.19.03 (7:04 pm) [edit]

THIS IS A REQUEST FROM ME! THE REVENANT CHILD I AM IN DESPERATE NEED OF GOOD METAL TITLES FOR MY MUSIC COLLECTION!
THe uSER WITH THE BEST LIST! WILL GET TWENTY TBUCKS...IF I REALLY LIKE THE LIST YOU WILL GET 40!

SO SEND SEND SEND!...

DO IT NOW!

*BLEEEDS OUT*

FUR FARKS SAKE!

12.19.03 (6:29 pm) [edit]

[current music = Drain the blood - THe distillers]
[current mood = spasmey :shock: ]
{think = "Deli Meat is pukey :shock: "}

Helloooo
deli meat really is pukey...
Oh no! they shot the christmas dancer!
ROFL that is so rediculously funny.
OH man...I am going to a party tomarri and I get the car overnight! ahajoo!

I seriously miss jess :( it's not cool lacking either her or brea...it's so lonrlyin the hall with out them!
There was a total of three people there 333!!!...me jeremy and monica. I was so sad. Greg left...
0_o oh man...hm and matt were singing a christmas carol...I am not sure which one it was...but there was a line in it and greg touched my nose...I was like...O_O :D
ANd....*inhales* Matt hugged me. Which was really odd cause usually I am the one who touches him...OMG I want a candycane *gets one* aha! *waves it around*

It has come to my attention...that people aren't visiting my blog anymore. I don't want tbucks people...I just wanna have people to talk to besides some of these small minded hicks. so please people...leave a comment let me know someone is listening.

I really hope sookie will stay for a while at the party. I want her to have a good time. she seems really unhappy.

Aw man..I am finally done wrapping mom's gifts...bout friggen time! i am not enjoying it. I like the fact that she is getting stuff...but I really hate wrappping them up lol

I wanna know what people think of me...am i pretty am i funny am i smart am i a good friend? I need reassurance! *dies in a hole*

I want...MY PICTURE!

HOLY FUCKING CRAP! my SQUISHY JUS TCAME ONLINE!!!AGHASKFJNEOIN
must go talk to her!
*bleeds out*

P.S. deli meat is pukey

I FOUND THE FROG!

12.19.03 (8:11 am) [edit]

[current mood = Crazy :roll: ]
[current music = Kill the president - the Offspring]
{think= "I FOUND MY FROGGY!"}

Oh man..I was fixing to sew my frog to my book bag! andf I lost IT!...but hten a ray of sweeet sweet light came and delivered my frog back to me!!! not really it was just in my pocket LOL :lol:

But now I am extremely happy and i think I am going to kill myself out of immense joy!
askhdkasdhfdhsdffgfgfghfh ghgjflffjfgl....*hyper*

well...more updates after lucnh!!!
*bleeds out*

LAst day of school!!

12.19.03 (6:17 am) [edit]

[current music = AntiChrist :D ]
[current mood = Chipper :shock: ]
{think = "holy CRAP! I have toes!}

Man oh man...last day of school!
woo HOoooo

Party tomarrie! New Player for christmas! *skitters* that's fucking awesome.
OH man...I cut my self Again!!...
*jive* I also had the chocolate today! it's Sookies fault..blame HER! *dances around*

I ..am supposed to be doing a postion paper! BUT!...I don't feel like doing it so I wont do it...but i won't fail! no no nonononononononono

I am going to pass..the english exam will be a cinch!
Yes I said Cinch..what hat...you got somehting to dsay???
ahahahahahhahaha :shock:

holy crap!
*blreeds out*

DUMB JOKE

12.18.03 (7:01 am) [edit]

Q: Why do women have legs??
A: Cause if they didn't they would leave a snil trail...

ahahah...or not...

*bleeds out*

Nooooooooooooooooo

12.17.03 (5:19 pm) [edit]

[current music = People Say I am No Good - Charles Manson]
[current mood = lonely :cry: ]
{think = "Bowling for Columbine is a REALLY good movie}

I like this movie...0_0. it is very nice....well not really nice....it is informative and not badly done.

Man...
wel got mom a whle bunch of stufff...for christmas.
Dig camera
4 in 1 printer
special paper
and we still need to get some more of the stuff she wanted...
she has better junk then I doo...
oh well

BYE
*bleeds out*

Kill ME

12.17.03 (5:25 am) [edit]

[current music = dog faced gods (yet again)]
[current mood = crap-o-la :cry: ]
{think = "My Jess. gone far far away"}

hey all.

My jess has left. She won't be back for like a week! ANd I am not impressed! not with her...but the fact that she won't be around to chitter with on MSN.

But my brea is still here and she's awesome! Man... :shock: she got me a blinking thing! i love the blinking freaky stuff! *wiggles the blinking thing!* they only blink when you move em so they don't wast batteries!

So...ahem :oops: greg commented on my artistic skills and I was just like :D :D :D
It was very nice of him to say so. I really like his musicl talent.

Oh man... My aunt knows who Greg is. SHe told me he broke both his arms once and I was like :O :cry: Poor thing. But then she told me it was Way way way before I even knew him. so then I was like :( in stead of :cry:

It turns out that me and my aunt are going to pick out my prom drees together instead of making one. I kinda like that idea...but what if i can't find what I want? i don't wanna have to gon in a dress that i won't remember as the most beautiful thing besides my wedding dress...

:shock: man...I am going to end up going to the prom alone :cry: i don't have the nerve to ask any one. and I am pretty dure no one will ask me. I am goin to end up a lonely ond freak with no one to love her for who she is...
holy crap fuck

I wan this holiday season to be OVER NOW! i can't stand all this happiness aruond me :cry:
I JUST WANNA END IT!

*bleeds out*

SADDAM INSANE

12.15.03 (4:51 pm) [edit]

<--begin rant-->
Ok. :shock:
As most of you currently know, they caught saddam. I am also sure that you guys have heard all you wanna here about him and president bush. But I am goign to voice my views on this thing and then you shall here no more about it.

So they find him in a hole. A hole underground. the take him into custody.
Then in a press conference (this is what makes me so mad) and he says that this man is a terrorist and killer. Hello bush in case you didn't notice YOU ARE TOO!.

You send men and women away from their loved ones and family. Who are then killed for your means! You are a killer too! It's your fault those people died. SO i don't think it is appropriate of you to sit there and say that saddam is simply a killer.

When will people learn that to wage war is to show the ignorance that plagues mankind as a race! killing is not a way to solve a problem and in fact...it simply makes it worse.
<--end rant-->

Death Metal!

12.15.03 (10:26 am) [edit]

[current mood = wiggley :shock: ]
[current music = incubated revelation - IMpurity]
{think = "I LOVE DEATH METAL!"}

WHoa...death metal...*screams and jumps* *thrashes to the music*

I forgot how much I love it! lately i had reverted to my lighter side with tunes by SYStem...And I jsut chose to pop in one of my burnt CD's..and lo and Behold invigorating death metal sprang to vehement life in my ear! It is positively blissful. *thrashes*

I AM A SLAVE TO THE METAL!
*Wind mills*
lol...I would never windmill in public...unless i was drunk...and I haven't been in a while.
[demonic fetal harvest]
Oh...MAn...I higly recomend Impurity! you may not like it but I am totally spazing about it!...YUS! oh..and check out Filthvomit...you can only get their stuff from their site!....www.filthvomit.tk...or com..I forget...

{searches www.evilmusic.com}
ok the sound it not that good from this site...but..but but but..you can hear the underlying talent!

*screams and Flails running into enveloping drakness*
*cuts wrists and bleeds out* :shock:

CRAPPY HAIR!!!

12.15.03 (9:28 am) [edit]

:evil:
I am so pissed off at my hair right now...I am trying to grow it out for my prom right...and there are no layers in it because I have previously cut it very short. so now ity's growing in and it's got a crappy triangle shape going on that doesn't flatter me at all! it's like grade nine all over again!...I think I might start gelling it into temp dreads untill it grows out more.

What do you think monica?

I Need some knot gel. AND that parkly thing from the buck or two..who cares if it is cheap? It's so COol!!!
*waves it around* WEeeeeeeeee
I hope brea gets it for me...If that's all I at I will be so damn Happy! and wear it all the time! *skitters*

OK...covered: Bad hair and blinky thing
all done...Til next time

*bleeds out*